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Our bedtime companions - me and my son’s. We’ve read the 2nd and 4th book countless times, sometimes for nth times in a given day as these are my son’s favorite books at the moment.

That first book (Change Your Life Without Getting Out Of Bed by Sark) in the pile,  one of latest acquisition, is a personal favorite.  With its colorful text, cute illustrations and sensible yet unique ideas,  it’s so fun to read it again and again. I also read it to my 3-year old  (and recreate stories from it) because he likes to look at the colorful illustrations.

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It’s been four days since she’s gone but I still couldn’t get it in my system that she’s REALLY gone. Gone for good.

Oh, she’s gone. She’s really gone. But I still can’t believe it.

When I received the call from her number last Monday, I had thought she’s just calling for some personal concerns. I had not expected to hear her sister’s quivering voice  in the other line, obviously trying hard not to cry, telling me that she’s gone. Despite knowing that she got a debilitating illness, the news came as a shock.

It’s still tough to get in terms with the loss at the moment.

She was more than a classmate, a friend and a  godmother to my son. She was my shock absorber,  confidante,  adviser, shopping-chatting-laughing buddy, mike-catcher (during karaoke sessions, when I don’t know a certain  song, all I need to do is pass the mike to her and she’ll do the number *smile*)…

I have so much wonderful memories of her - the million and one jokes we’ve shared,  the principles she lived by, the  songs she used to sing… There are just so much to remember of her.  And  I  know I will always remember everything -despite being so forgetful. *Sigh* One thing I will always remember is her faith in God. Sickness and all, she continued to praise God for everything -it’s truly amazing.

Haaay. I will just miss her. Her friends and family will.  I wanna tell her a lot in this post  but  I’ll do it one word: thanks. Or one sentence: Yes, thanks for enriching my life with your friendship.

I’m certainly sad to lose this awesome friend but a part of me is happy because I know she’s home. And that she’s happy to be home with our God.

Last night, I cried.

Nah, it’s nothing serious (?). It’s just tears of exhaustion -and frustration, too.

Not much. Just trickles from my tear glands.

Coming home after 12 hours of work (for 2 days straight), I could barely move a muscle when I reached home. I wasn’t even able to change my clothes and eat dinner. I was already asleep even before my head hit the bed. And the saddest thing was, I dozed off with the voice of my son telling me “Mama, I want you” in the background.

That’s worth more than an apology to my son.

It’s been awhile since I last posted here but I’ve been really bee-zee. But since today is Mother’s Day, I’d like to give myself the pleasure of blogging –if only for a little while. Now, I don’t really have a specific topic to blog about but in line with today’s celebration, I want to just list few things about motherhood.

Three Things I Learned As A Mother
1) No matter what book I read, nothing will prepare me for the pain of seeing my kid get hurt.
2) Diaper expenses (alone) should be best forgotten
3) Indeed, a child’s kisses can wipe away the hurt.

Three Embarrassing Moments As A Mother
1) Matt screamed “Idiot Boy” to a kid while we were hearing mass (and it happened during one of those quiet pauses!)
2) I was busy making my transactions in an ATM and I didn’t notice that, for all the world to see, my son was also busy doing his transaction on the base of the ATM machine (read: peeing on it *gasp* ).
3) “Mama, there’s the p–nis” Matt said while pointing to a tennis ball.

Three Things My Son Said To Me Today
1) “Are you not going to work?”
2) (He whispered) “Don’t talk louder (loudly). Close your mouth!”
3) “Happy Mother’s Day!”

Three Wishes For My Son
1) I wish for good health and a happy life for him.
2) I pray that he’d grow up to be a good Christian.
3) And that at the right time, he’d find the girl who would love her as much as I do.

Three Gifts I Wanted on Mother’s Day
1) A vacation – I badly needed a break!
2) A pair of rubber shoes – it doesn’t have to be a North Face walking shoes but it would be a bonus if it’s Women Prophecy 2. Lolz.
3) Patience – I wanted to have lots of it! Haayy wish…

Happy Mother ’s Day everyone!